Collect Moments

At the end of the day I think all can be summed by different perspectives and subjectivities. What constitutes 'cheating' is a huge grey area, while physical cheating was out of the picture, emotional cheating may lie on the blurred boundaries, while I did not go to the extent of confiding in the person, sharing an emotional closeness that would normally be reserved for the partner, I did however lied about the dinner, which as much as you want to know, I do too, sometimes question myself what was my motive ultimately for that night.  I think the past two months has been really hard for you. And you have always asked why did I not handle it better, why did I cause you so much pain. Yes, I did, I caused you pain because I have betrayed the trust you put into our relationship, the expectations you had in me and walked away from it, but all break ups are heart-breaking no matter what isn't it.  I do not know how else I could have done to make things better. I have seen fr...

I love Novembers.  I love how the rain splatter onto the windows; the thunderous sound from afar; the cold feeling in the air; the freshness after the rain when I step out of the house; I even love how unpredictable yet expected the rain comes every day.  I remember how I stick my face by the window when I was much younger, looking out of the window in amusement. I remember playing in the rain after PSLE at the playground beside Tps. I remember the few occasions I walked in the rain during secondary school days. I remember sharing umbrellas with 940 and chua walking down the ahs hill.  November has been hitting the right note for me this year. And yesterday was definitely a good day to remember, for the very first time in history, I got back a A and 3 A- grades in one day. Something that I have never even dreamt of so far. It was definitely a moral boost to push myself forward for the remaining weeks, haven knows how pessimistic I was with my academic outlook...

Do you remember the last time we came to TiongBahru three years back, do you remember the joyous moments we had, getting lost together in the estate, discovering new cafes, spending a nice afternoon together at the cafe which name I have long forgotten, all I remember still is the fruit tart that we had. Do you remember us walking back strolling along the roads back to town?  You are the closest person I hold to heart, you have been there for me all the time, all the days I go to school in my swollen eyes, all the important moments in life, you were there with me. You are always there, replying my message instantaneously, going around doing stupid stuffs together, never turning down my stupid request, and I have never find anyone that close to me since then. You were my, my listener my adviser my friend my very very precious person. And where are you now.  There are so much things I wish I could tell you, just so much. I wish that you are sitting right opposite me now...