Collect Moments

Dear blog, what would you have done. What would you have done if for two years, you were in a fairly decent relationship. No big quarrels, no completely turning of the world around like in the past. It wasn't what you were hoping for, he wasn't what you wanted, but you could see him putting in effort, slowly changing, changing for you,. There are happy times, but your feelings for him were volatile, at times you find it disheartening that he isn't giving you what you wanted, at times you feel very appreciative of the efforts he put in. The relationship wasn't a unhappy one, but again, something is always missing from it. He isn't perfect - but so aren't you. You were never very sure that he is the person you want to marry to, but you move along in the relationship anyway. For whatever reasons it could have been, if not love. Comfort? Reliance? Convenience? You may argue. And at some point of time, someone else entered the picture. Someone that you never...

Almost been a month, since I last come here, or rather I had tried to start on writing something many times, but everything seems to be in a complete mess, and I don't know what to say about. But some things, even if we chose not to talk about it ever again, we can't live our life pretending that it has never happened. There are so much things in my mind, yet there is nothing. There is a mixture of almost all the feelings in the word, all the emotions I could think of, I'm feeling a bit of all now.  Two years hasn't been a long time, but it's 700 over solid days indeed, every single day of it. You asked how could two years meant absolutely nothing to me at all. Well, the answer is that it definitely did, but it did not change my perception of you, fundamentally. As we experience some things, we will learn that when we say 'we cannot be together', it simply means that in that particular time-space, we are not suitable for each other. And the supposed ...