当明天变成今天再成为昨天。

当明天变成了今天成为了昨天，最后成为记忆里不再重要的某一天，
我们突然发现；自己在不知不觉中已被时间推着向前走。

这不是静止火车里，与相邻列车交错时仿佛自己在前进的错觉，
而是我们真实的在成长，在这件事里成了另一个自己。

- 《单身公寓》

Fully aware with the fact that I've been blogging every day or atleast alternate days,

despite I've a whole list of work aside to complete. but agh. Need a platform to.. well, talk to myself :')

Left school halfway today as usual and went down to Singapore philatelic museum, 

not that im a big fan of stamps but well, just to walk around places I've never been before, alone.


I love to travel around, used to have lil fantasy when I was 13,picturing me and future boyf travelling around Singapore, visiting places we have never been before.
Take random buses and drop off at random stops to explore the places.
Look for good food by going around the country's hidden corners. (It feels weird when I refer Singapore as a country.)
However these ideas never materialised after these years, despite numerous relationships.
No one seems to be interested in it, or was it I had never ever mention my plans to them? Ah forget it.
So anyway I've decided that I can do this by myself, not that I'm on a wheelchair and need people to push me right.


The museum is pretty awesome, it's two storeys and took me 2hours to finish one round. 
I tried to read every single paragraphs along the exhibition but I kind of get impatient when I walk up the stairs.
Nonetheless I would say it's a day well spent there and I gained knowledges. Though most probably I will forget all of them soon.
It was today I learn that  Eurasian   refers to European plus Asian, about history and jargon of stamps despite it's unlikely for me to ever use them in life. I learnt heritage of Singapore, yet again. 
I learnt about Tintin comics and his creator, Hergé.This list is so never ending. 


Well sometimes I hate it that I have short term memory.
I hope I remembered everything I've seen, heard, and learnt in life.

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J1 is officially ending in two days' time. For me tmr will be last.
It's a pity that I'll miss the last day of school term, the highlight of Victorian Affair ): Sorry wahshuan.
This year past really fast ( As if there is a year that past slowly) and once again, somebody found and lost.
The worst thing in a relationship is that you immediately downgrade from Oh-so-close-lovers to strangers the minute y'all break up.
Biggest lesson learnt form this relationship, don't ever rush into a r/s again. 
Anything that's mean to be, will be.


Study wise. As I was talking with Alicia at Starbucks the other day, I came across a story which kind of shaken my heart for a period of time months ago. 
There's one remarkable paragraph in it states that:
“我知道有些人自以为很聪很有才气，看不起那些认真学习刻苦努力的同学，总觉得人家是笨鸟先飞是先天不足。可是我想说，你只是懦弱！你是不敢尝试，你只是不敢像她们一样地去努力去刻苦，因为你怕自己刻苦了也比不上他们，刻苦了也考不了第一，结果反遭人耻笑，你宁可不去尝试，只是因为有失败的风险，而你甚至连这一点风险都承担不起，因为，在你心底，你对知道根本就没有把握...”

读到这段话的时候我看到了我自己。“你只是懦弱。” 难道不是么？。。。

So anyway we talked a lot that night, about death, life, afterlife, the world, university, career. Feel matured. 
Though I think in another 3 years time, when we look back at the conversation, We will find ourself childish again. But it's ok.
So anw.... A level is in less than a year's time? Omg this thought scares me damn. )': Not prepared at all.
Zzz no wait is haven start preparing. Sigh. 我的前途你在哪里~

I don't think that when people grow up,they will 
become more broad-minded and can accept everything.
Conversely,I think it's a selecting process,knowing 
what's the most important and what's the least.
And then be a simple man.

他妈的怎么会不停的想你呢，靠那个靠。什么破心脏么，坏掉了么。