Self critique.
I don't think I have ever felt so inferior until I have started working. Yes I was the last few percentile in VJ, my CAP never went over 4.0 all the four years in NUS, I never scored a single goal during the 2 years in soccer, I have seldom compared myself to others, at least not academically. But the working environment was a big reality check, I started questioning myself a lot. Why was I so inefficient? Why do I feel incapable and lost a lot? Why do I take so long to find a damn email in the archive? Ofcause I know the answers very well too. Inexperienced, poor computing skills, lack of a sharp mind, horrible memory, nervousness. There is a lot of flaws and shortcomings I see in myself through work, through living with lnr. Sometimes I wonder what went wrong while I was growing up. It's definitely unfair to infer that my mum/aunt was slack in discipline me, the effort and time they have spent on me was overabundance. All the beating and scoldings I've received from mak...