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Been having the urge to type, but I have been finding all sorts of excuses to procrastinate. And the truth is that I miss my teenage days, I know 21 is still young in relation to one's entire lifespan, I'm not insisting that I'm too old already, but that even at the age of 21. I already felt the vast difference from before. While I was on the way home earlier on a couple in secondary school uniform was strolling in front of me, and it brought me back to the days when I was a secondary student like them, when I talk like a xia0Meiimeiizxzx, when I had all the time of day to waste outside, when I was in a relationship and I thought that the person is the one and only. How naive indeed, I would have been so ashamed if somebody secretly recorded a footage of myself back in those days, those embarrassment, those so called troubles I had, those selfish and self-centered thought I have drawn upon myself. And time has changed, people grew. Day by day, comes responsibility, it is ...

Week 5, 21 years old now. Doesn't feel like it, and refuse to embrace it. Okay this probably has nothing to do with my birthday or not, but more of my stagnant state of my studies. Terrible, sigh. This is equivalent to my year 1 sem 1, or rather worse. And I'm forever in the shagged out state physically. Ohman, today is only the start of Soccer training. I didn't even have any prior commitment to this. Sigh. And relationship has slowly fades to the stage whereby two of us quarrel over the smallest thing ever almost every other day, damn, never thought these days will come, so soon. Well, I just really really need to sleep now. There is a lot of things on my mind, and yet in another second there is nothing on my mind. I need a good break and come back stronger.

After what feels like a month, and after all the procrastinations, I'm back to my most comfortable self, the blogging me. :) Sometimes I can't imagine how devastated I will be if blogger is removed from the internet one day. All my entries, all the words written, be gone. Well, let's not get into something hypothetical for now. It's four week into school and I have yet to bring out my fighting spirit to pull my results yet. The mods I'm taking this semester is interesting but my mugging spirit is just not there yet. And staying in hall is, redundant now. Things would have been the same, if not better if I were staying in residence. Coming to year two, I have became extremely reluctant to interact with new faces, or even catching up with some of the old ones. I'm way more comfortable staying in my room with the fairy lights by the window, the LEGO miniature figures on the table, resting on the funky chair my mum bought. I won't deny that I love the entire...

BStruggled to wake up from a dream this morning. One that I was trying to escape, as usual. This was more draining mentally for I found myself back to the place where I tried to escape after a long ride, and from there I tried to run away again, but it was proved to be another helpless struggle. It's strange how sometimes the feelings in dreams haunt us even after we wake up to the reality. The fear, the pain, the struggle all felt real, and I woke up feeling more lethargic than last night. I have spent a lot of time sleeping recently, for while we are asleep we don't have to think much.  Things been going okay the past week though majority of time I found myself surrounded by gloominess. I found myself starting to avoid interaction with people that I know but not closed to. In the past if I were to meet one on the street I would stop to catch up, but now I'd try to look away and avoid the very basic interaction. I did not have any urge to get to know the freshies better, n...

If I'm not asleep by 3am on any day it would probably going to be a long night ahead, such as tonight. Being the soccer captain in Sheares wasn't stressful until now, knowing that a coach with be training us voluntarily.  SH soccer has always been ranked last the past few years so it was all along a matter of 'there is nothing else to lose'. Not a popular choice, pathetic number of turn up rates and basically most people didn't give a shit. And things changed, after meeting up with the coach who sincerely offered to coach the team free of charge, willing to pump in both time and effort all the way into ihg. I feel that it's my responsibility to get as many good players as I could, people who are not necessarily good in hard skills, but ones who are willing to train hard and stay committed. It's not going to be easy, a look at the google doc showing the clashing of trainings doesn't give a good sign ahead. And me being not socialising enough the past yea...

Greeting from after the first week of school~ Still energetic, still optimistic and still a dreamer. :')  With the 'I need to cherish my last week of holiday' mindset, I spent yet another great deal of time Googling places to go in Singa, and that is probably what grinds my brain every time. Since I refuse to conform to a typical movie and dine out date, the tiny Junting inside me was jumping for joy when Tan suggested Minds cafe, whilst I was opening my 13th Google link on Fun-things-to-do-in-Singa . Though it's ought to be for larger crowds, it was a good afternoon spent. Okay, it's commonly agreed that 2 hours was the optimal time to spend there.  It's ironic how I grumble about how little activities there is in Singa, while complain about how far the countryside (Kranji ) is from where I stay. Albeit I have been bringing up about popping by the farms since years ago, it was never materialized. Someday when I'm determined enough maybe. To my ...

Run everyday to prepare for marathon, eat balanced meals to ensure regular shitting, be confidence and love my body despite the bouncy fats :D People come in all shape and sizes.  Sink into a comfortable office chair, browse through the net with a mac mouse, sit by the window and enjoy a cup of green tea with great taste, grow something and ensure it doesn't wither within 2 weeks again.   Join more things in hall within my commitment limit, get to know more Geog major friends, finish revision and make notes on the day of lesson. Do my best to pull cap and apply for scholarship every sem.