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Was browsing through my past posts as usual and came across (probably) the biggest irony ever from my first post-A level post back then in 2012, hahahahah, did I ever said that I will never touch geography ever? HAHAHAHA. Lesson learnt: don't be so certain about something too early. 

每个人都拥有自己的人生，今天的努力，是幸运的伏笔；当下的付出，是明日的花开。 这或许是今年迄今为止最大的领悟。不用看别人的眼光，不用跟随别人的脚步，按自己的喜好去塑造自己。我觉得很久以来我都是一个很没有自信的女孩，对于很多事还未尝试就已经败下阵来，好比年少时因为自己微胖的体型被嘲笑而时刻感到自卑；好比中学时体能测验迟迟不敢向前跃身一跳；好比一路来对自己成绩从未抱有过于常人的期望；以此类推等等。总是觉得自己一没才华二没天分，注定凡事会失败的一塌糊涂。转折点是十九岁那年遇到一个全身充满正能量的少年，在他不懈的支持与鼓励下，才对自己稍微改变了看法。而在分开之后的很长一段时间里，我都一直不断的想改变一点什么，从努力减肥开始，从之前未跑过1.6公里到九个月后跑下半程马拉松，是我迄今回想起来都为自己的付出感到骄傲的一件事。 在大学宿舍的两年里认识了许多形形色色的人，有的才华横溢出类拔萃，每天好比超人般穿梭于各各社团体育 成绩照样高高挂起；就说我的宿舍邻居兼好友G，每个星期要教五六个补习，平时每晚热衷于跳舞到凌晨一两点，但成绩仍在上游绰绰有余，上个学期自费在欧洲周游了四个月，回来继续奋斗，我对她可说是十分的钦佩外加一点点崇拜。当然时间是公平的，G每天练舞回来凌晨开始读书，要么设闹钟凌晨5点起来奋斗，平时很少有时间和朋友聚会。就在我每天跑出去玩无所事事虚度光阴的时候，她都在默默地付出并努力着。所以我学会了从来不去羡慕别人生活中美丽的光环，因为你看不到他们背后的付出。 我一直都很敬佩身边这些正能量的友人，我总为自己结识她们而感到荣幸，为她们自己争取到的生活感到开心。与此同时，我希望自己也能不断的提升自己，因为一个人最好的升值期或许就是现在，毋庸置疑。 只有提升了自己的价值，才将会有无限的可能。我们该如何定义成功的人生？我想我的人生与金钱无关，我希望自己能最终找到一份自己称心如意的工作，我希望我和我的爱人能共同支撑起一个温暖的家庭，能相互扶持，相辅相成，并相濡以沫。 我希望我们会有两三个健康可爱的孩子，我希望他们和我一起快乐的成长，让一家人在一起的时光过的很暇意。 或许能这样度过一生，足矣。 而在我还未组织自己的家庭之前，我想一直努力成为更好的自己，平时好好照顾自己的皮肤，保持身材，多看书看报，多旅行有所见闻，有自己的想法，做自己喜欢的事，培养自信，并永远不要放弃独立。

Gotta find the momentum to blog about our Bali trip before I procrastinate too long. I popped the idea earlier in Feb as a suggestion for Valentine's initially, and we got it finalized bout two week prior to the trip. Was xiao pleasantly surprised that it was made into reality :') As much as I promised to keep up with the upcoming submissions immediately after the trip, guess what happened was that I still had some mad last minute rush last week, but it's all over for now. Never been to Bali before this and I guess I always have this very romantized and magical feeling about Bali islands, perhaps largely accounted by the fanciful ads that portray them as one~ So moment of truth, Yes no crystal clear beach water like Krabi or Pattaya, no cheap clothes like Buangkok, but I guess Bali has its own charm, though we didn't go the the rich heritage sites during the trip, and spend more than half of the time in our own worlds at the private resort, but I truly enjoyed  t...

Feeling like I have been detached from the world, and this feeling probably began as early as I moved out from Sheares almost a year back. Guess everything is about finding the balance in life, too much of anything does no good. Been trying to squeeze time out to blog and to reflect about my life recently, but time is just never on my side. Nonetheless I'm back to this familiar place while the 3000 words research proposal is going to write on its own. As I was submitting my NUS transcript together with my internship application the other day, I started wondering how did I fare personally the past three years, what have I done badly for? What I regretted choosing? What I enjoyed most? If given another chance, how would I have reset the game? Today I received a JTC job opening mail from the department, and under requirement it states 'good honours degree in Real Estate, Economics, Geography and Urban Planning', and I wonder what have I done in Nus in paving my road, or d...

Been really wanted to blog about everything about us, but somehow it still feels so surreal at times, too good to be true, that I got worried if I am painting a overly flowery picture. After all, it's just been four months, that's too short a period to make much credible judgements. Though I really do wish what I see from you everyday is not just a fallacy.  It's been four truly amazing months, and I can't appreciate you enough every day. And I hope that I will constantly remind myself to never stop showing my appreciation, and never take you for granted. I hope that I will remember all the heartwarming things you have done for me, and those will be my source of joy everyday. There are so much to list out, just to name a few, thank you always pulling me to the inner side of the road; thank you for never fail to send me home every single time thus far, with or without car; thank you for always opening the car's door for me; thank you for always asking what do I ...

Do you realize that when you marry your Prince or Princess charming, you inherited the king, the queen, and the whole court? And that can be really tricky. The thought of marriage being the joint of two entire families gives me the most paranoid feeling ever. And I guess in-laws do play a significant role in how the marriage goes. In that case all I foresee is a continual drain and irritation in time to come looking at the rate of things are going at now. If I don't calm down and think of more sensible ways in dealing with it, it's probably gonna be disastrous. While the very first thought that come to my mind is then to not get married at all and get entangled in all these problems, that might deem as avoidance and a coward act. Guess I need to learn to face the fear and think of how to go about doing it instead of avoiding, to be fair to whom I truly adores. Oh well, and that's probably the toughest issue I had to face in life thus far. Oh junting welcome to adulthoo...

Was browsing through a list of state policies and Family Reports today as one of the modules was touching on it this week. After looking at the history of  policy makings and amendments the state made over the last 50 years, I can't help but to wonder why despite tremendous efforts by the state, billions of dollars thrown into every aspects of life, singles are still delaying marriage, couples are delaying child births in general. All these seems to imply that because the state isn't addressing to the root causes of low TFR and marriage. Yes it might sounds like a cradle to grave approach in alleviating the financial cost of raising a child throughout different life phases From Baby bonus to Medisave for accouchement to Childcare subsidies to Primary one registration priorities to Child Development Account to all sorts of Tax rebates and Paid leave under Marriage & Parenthood package. The Total Fertility Rate isn't showing the least effort to improve.   Then perhap...